Fading: A Poem

I can't tell if my chest pain is
an anxiety attack or a heart attack.

What's the difference between 
an anxiety attack and a panic attack,
anyway?

delusions 
                delusions
are all I think
when I close my eyes

zig zag
            zig zag

prick my heart with a needle 
so it can pop already 
                                    
                                      kabloom