sometimes I love you so much it hurts like my heart tightens and hurts in the way ripping a scab off new skin feels good but even though it only hurts sometimes I love you always scrapes and all

sometimes I love you so much it hurts like my heart tightens and hurts in the way ripping a scab off new skin feels good but even though it only hurts sometimes I love you always scrapes and all
it used to make me sad: wondering if we’d be married in heaven wondering if our love could be so special that it would be allowed to last forever and at the time I would often wonder will I even go to heaven? how presumptuous of me what if you go there and I cannot follow? and now there are some days I wonder if I even believe in god at all but I always believe in you and I guess you’re a good enough answer to every question
I can taste your skin just by looking at you. The texture is flat and smooth against my tongue. Your lips on my skin pull the string below my bellybutton tighter. Your breath invades me and everything is hot. Drink me in and let me drown.
Do you feel the way I feel when I look at you? Do you feel your heart beat harder? Do you feel your fists perspire? I love you the way trees love the sun: I exist in your light.